SOWL Challenge #3: Confess! What is your worst eating moment?

The Summer of Weight Loss challenge #3 is Confess! What was your worst eating moment?

Again, I am way behind since this challenge was posted on July 14th but that's one day after I joined the challenge.  I finished challenge 1 on July 14th and challenge 2 is partially finished as of July 26th so here I go with challenge 3.

I'm not sure about this one but I suppose I could discuss my weight loss history.  I would say I was between 125 and 140 for most of my pre-baby life.  Not ideal but not overweight.  I think it was babies 3, 4, and 5 that pushed me over.  I had them 18 months apart approximately and it took it's toll.  After baby 3 I lost the weight but then 4 and 5 happened and that was the end of it. There was too much stress in my life at that point and I think I peaked in 2001. I soon lost about 1/2 of the weight but that was about it for several years. There are always ups and downs but I think it was divorce 2 that pushed a big up, never near the peak, but up. 

The confession is I am an emotional eater, or at least I was.  There often were times I would go to the grocery store and buy a slice of cake (during the end of the marriage) and eat it on my way home in the car just to feel better.  I could really eat.

I have changed over the years as I have learned what works and what fails miserably. One thing I learned is my "No" list.  There are just foods I can never eat or I will overeat.  It never fails. I can't say "I'll just have one".

I also will not stick to a specific diet.  I choose to learn how to eat for the rest of my life.  What I can and can not eat, how to eat, how much to eat, and when to eat.  If I want an ice cream at dairy queen, I have one but I know the consequences and I decide if I can live with it at that moment.  Now would be one of those times I can not live with it because of my "motivators".  With SWOL I am going to want to publish the numbers so this challenge is good for me to say no to indulgence.

This year, I have chosen fitness activities over food and it is working fabulously. I have fallen in love with running and I believe so much that it is the only way for me to take it off (the weight) and keep it off.  The mental and physical benefits are unbeatable. Whether it be a training goal or for mental clarity I always feel better after a run.  It has become my passion.

I started this blog because I found my facebook posts of my progress were influencing friends, new and old.  I had so much to say and so much to learn,  I decided to blog about it instead!  Thank you SWOL challenge! Thank you Facebook friends! Thank you blog readers!  You are my motivators and telling you about my progress is one of the biggest motivators of all. This is the ultimate confessional. I am held accountable by my own words. :) Emotional eating...no more!